A Hidden Smile!

Cheer up sunshine, put a smile on that dial, why are you so grumpy? Ever had someone say these things to you? I have, almost everyday!!

Since I can remember I have been teased about not smiling or have been told to cheer up, but guess what I am smiling, I am happy and cheery. I can't help looking the way I do, the muscles in my face tend not to move like yours, that's all. I smile all the time and for those who know me, they see my smile but to others it's just hidden! FSH MD makes our muscles become weak, they are there but they are so weak that they tend not to work. It's a bit like having botox in your face!!!

I'll never forget when I was a child being at my Grandma and Grandpa's house and being asked by my Aunts and Uncles to smile, I smiled but when I did, they all laughed at me and told to smile properly. They then asked me to pucker my lips like I was giving someone a kiss and I did, and again they laughed. I was asked to try again and again and I was trying my hardest and could not understand why they were laughing at me. It felt like I was smiling and it felt like I was puckering my lips but why were they laughing? What was I doing wrong?
At that time my family didn't know, nor did I know that I had FSH MD and I think back, would they have teased me if they knew? Would they have laughed? Still to this day random people will tell me to smile, to cheer up or ask why I'm so sad! Do I really look that terrible and upset? I probably do for a split second because it's like a flash back to sitting around that kitchen table at my Grandma and Grandpa's having everyone laugh at me.

I have learnt the ways my face works and the angles that make my smile show the best as I have grown older. However I think it still comes back to that old saying, Don't judge a book by its cover!! I may look grumpy and sad to you but trust me, I'm not (unless of course, you have caught me during that one week of allowance that all females have for grumpiness) and for all the struggles that I face everyday, I have to admit that I am a pretty happy person and I feel myself smiling all the time and that is all that really matters, I feel my smile my loved ones see me smile. It's a hidden smile but it's one worth discovering!

Oh remember how I said it's like having botox in your face, I have what I like to call natural botox and when you look 50 I will still look 30! Is a hidden smile all worth it? I think so!