Most nights I dream, most people do. I love to dream and as good as my dreams, are they can also be a bit frustrating. As you all know, in your dreams you can do anything! I can too, I can run, I can jump and I can dance (oh how I love to dance). One of my favorite dreams is playing Chasey with my little boy and I just love the look on his face when I catch him! Then I wake up and the daily reality of my life sets in.
Sitting having a coffee the other day, I found myself day dreaming, dreaming of what it would be like to be able to walk like that girl over there that just walked past. Or how great the feeling would be if I could chase after my child like that Mum running around over there, yes her child was being naughty but still she could chase after him, where as me I just yell, "Come Back Here! Now"! I find myself doing this a lot of late. Watching other people, how easily they move around and how easy it is for them to just walk, to step up onto the side walk without even looking. I watch how easily and gracefully their bodies move. I also find myself thinking about how much they take it for granted. If only they knew how lucky they were.
I think I do this in part, out of jealousy because I can't just step up onto the sidewalk, or fly up the stairs. I have to look at the ground everywhere I go. I do this because I have created a habit for myself out of fear that I might fall or might not be able to get up that step. I have to watch out for sticks and stones that may cause me to lose my balance. I also can very quickly in my mind judge the shortest distance and easiest pathway for to get to form point A to point B. Pretty clever when you really think about, isn't it?
Another reason I watch the way people get around is because I find it almost graceful. I am so clumsy and so far from graceful that when I see someone jump up the stairs, or get up out of their seat without having to lean on the table, I watch and see what most people would not look at. I see how all their muscles in their legs contract and release and just lift them up so easily and it is a truly amazing thing to watch.
People stare at me for the way I move around and now I am finding myself doing the same thing. You know, you might not like your big bum or the way that dress looks on you but just remember there are people in this world just like myself that are jealous and think that your body, just the way it is, is completely beautiful because it just works the way you want it to without having to think about it.
I find ways to make things work for me even if I have to always be thinking about how? For instance, I may not be able to run and play chasey with my little boy but we still play chasey, we crawl around like lions chasing each other, or try and catch each other by throwing a ball. It might not be the graceful way but still it works and his face is just the same as in my dreams when I catch him. Dreams really can come true.
I'll end this blog with a quote that I love,
Don't be pushed by your problems, be led by your dreams!!
